training session failed failed FAILED!
=(((((((((((

wanted to go swimming this morning
but when i woke up. i look at my clock...
i have only 1 word to say
"SIAN"
its really damn sickening!
and in e end went running only.and the running is ..
sian.even more sian.
i never felt so weak before!
the feeling totally suck ttm! i hate it .serious
i hate myself too.
i hate myself being so weak!
but.im really weak. damn cui! i dun like


went out for dinner with bro and my gff!
awesome i shd say! hehehe!
althou i smell really bad now.. but.
thanks to my 2 beloved friends. who are more than just friends!
love u guys ttm!
and...presenting to u the genius creation by yours truly!! ahhhhhh!!

this is freaking awesome! and chio !!! hehehes
ps. am not referring to e greeeeen liquid behind! its mucous likeeeeee!=ppp

neeeeeeds to practice more self-control ahhhhhh!!!
gosh!!
will tml's training be a success of failure too?
hmmm. looking forward!

proj meeting was as early as 8am today.
and totally didn expect it to last till 12nn.
its really tiring
but. shili and evon have been such great grp mates
and i really felt bad for not doing much.

and ..to make the things slightly better...
my supervisor keryun bought MR BEAN for all of us for breakfast
tt was super caring of her! =))

met cousssssie after the meeting.
and thanks cassie for picking me up from NUH ahhh!
thanks! ure the best man! love u most!!!
hehehee... and also shopping trip even though we both bought nothing =(
and literally all money was spent on FOOOOOD


hmmmmm. looking forward to my training plan tml.
hope i can accomplish it seriously!
sat-that-i-dont-have-to-work ==> im excited yo! hehehes
im gonna make sure the whole day is fully utilised!

<33333
but im drained of energy already =(

yesterday was full of craps
early part of the day was alright.
cuz it was just proj.literally sitting outside emart and do proj


mmm.i guess all great thoughts come in during piano lesson i suppose?
ok. fine. wasn thinking abt anything . but more of . sudden mood swing or wadever it is
scales & arpegios have always been smooth for me. but yet. i have no freaking idea what happened yst. or was it plain irritation? that i just dun feel like playing
its a bad attitude. but i guess what can happen, happens
then exam pcs was as usual.major turnoff.
LOL! and my tcher starts asking random qn that i have no idea how to answer
i can only say "iddunnnno i dunnoooo" everything i also duno

no faith.no hope.no motivation.
what can i say?

well. as i haven been here for a very long time. this shall be a rojak post.

FYP
although its break now..
but FYP is definitely not giving us the break.
well.. true to a certain extent maybe cuz it was supposed to be a break..for us to do proj.
sighs.. JIAYOU evon and shili! FIGHTING!


Sad life
mmm.how does it feel to be weak.
how many people understand how vulnerable it could be?
you could say "yes.. i understand" ==> but if u are not reflecting abt what u did, and how to not be.. then alright. i guess im just reading too much into it.
but it you say "yes..i understand" and yet you are just saying it for the sake of it. sorry... you dun deserve to say that u understand .because u seriously dun!

and for those.. who doesn even know how weak they are...
good luck to u. u can continue to live in ur own comfort zone
everything exists for a reason. and by the time u realise how impt some things are.. it will be gone. long gone..

am not referring to anything in particular.
but everything in life ; and this is life for you.

Shape Run 2010
this is my first time participating in Shape run..
and. i duno if i have the rights to say that the planning this year suck?
because. i haven been to the one last year. so there isn anything for me to complain
but... imagine u urself taking part in a 10km run..
and u have to walk a freaking 2-3km to reach ur destination,
and u have to chiong to get to the place u wanted... and the helpers cant help u
but leave u to fend for urself....
thats the worst part of the event bahs
other than that..everything is fine!

its really cool to have all women getting tgt and running on this very day.
its really meaningful. (why i duno=> but its really cool to see all giving their very best on the race, and the best part is NO GUYS!)

well.. i didn do very well for that run.
but im sure im motivated to do much better! definitely!
and .. im gonna make sure my nx event shall be so much better than this
so......this few weeks of holiday. whenever im free.im gonna make sure i will use the time wisely.which is to train myself !! ^^
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!
anyone wanna take part in Great Eastern Women Run 10km please feel free to jio!
thank you!


Chilling
Cassie! ure the best ahhhs!
thanks for pei-ing me today ahhs.u know i appreciate it ehs
and hor...friday go out ok ok! hahahas^^
thanks for talking to me, gossipping with me too! hehehes
the choco lava cake is nice even thou i didn heat it up! lalala~ it still taste fabulous~ woooots. awefully sinful!

and hor.. i where got become darker sio!
anyhow say! hahas, is u too long nv see me liao lor..hahas
healthy color ok! hahas, i think i got fitter right.ah DARN! hahahas
mmm. cindy likes my tan ok! heehehees!


Signing off this blog post
tml's gonna be a long day! cuz of the proj meeting with evon and shili tml.
jiayou ppl and sleeeep early..im gonna sleep early too ah.hahas!
mmm. i guess thats a pretty wordy post huh...hmmmm

shall end here.cuz im heading to bed! lalala~
EWEN AND MAX AH enjoy ur BKK ahhhhs.

with love from YOURS TRULY ^^v

now i knw how come some of my days are so screwed up!

hahahs! cool huh!

mmm.
igonna get a new water bottle!!! ahhhhh

thank god its off site today.
but ..the worse thing is what have i done that is meaningful enuff.
to make me feel good for the day...

woke up at 1230, and then decided to go for a run..
it was a really short run ..but the weather was great. and it was a really enjoyable one
everything just feels so good.
until the time i was on my way to htns.
and consequently, all that happened, sucked ttm

was conversing with one of my fren, and realised..
its true. i seemed to have too little time for too much things
but sometimes i was just wondering
maybe its these things that made my day?
and i think if i can choose wad i wanna learn . i wanna learn yoga
i need to learn to calm my mind ...

have been reflecting these past few days. and came to a conclusion tt
i have really learnt alot from the days at pharm admin
is it really the "who moved my Cheese" or ducks quack eagles fly?
maybe yes? maybe no?...
i only know..im gonna try my best to make my life a better one.


its definitely not possible for me to stop complaining (simply because to me, blogging is a form of complaining)
but... at least i know there is somewhere the other side of me can exist.



短暂的幸福　拥有就足够了 ...
还有什麼值得我逗留

indeed. happiness is a choice, not a chance.
hmmm

thoughts were pretty badly jumbled earlier on
after running 1km or so, just to sweat it out, i felt much better
i swear.much much better.
maybe because i dun feel that bad anymore i suppose

although it was only a short run..super short run,
i felt satisfied with it.
as in. it feels like. its really erm. great.
it takes my mind off everything
running at night is a totally different experience.hmmm

did the static exercise while watching tv..=pp

NO LIMITS...
cool show! serious! i have never been so motivated before!
and i really am motivated! know no limits!




cheryl!hwaiting!!!!!!
//when life knocks you down, you can choose to get back up//

sleep. a horrible monster that brought my life away.

wanted to go get some workout done earlier on..
but..
who knows, the moment i sat on my bed, i KO-ed
and for all i know, the nx thing i opened my eyes, i saw the clock
its already 7.30pm

this suck ttm.
this feeling really sucked. it feels like i just wasted that 1.5hr of my life doing nth, and its really depressing

fell asleep with a sad, sulky and troubled mood
woke up with a cranky, grouchy and irritated mood

however much i wanted to do smth to atone for my sins,
i realised, nth can be done
except to complain in my blog.

who the hell would know how i felt.
who can understand. the feeling really suck ttm!
what is the world coming to?


its time to wake up and face the reality.
why am i daydreaming.
i really must learn to stop believing at nothing.

SP Biathlon was errrm. i would say a brand new experience
not a good one, neither is it a bad one
just that.. ermmm. maybe its kinda neutral lar.

i would say that maybe its a little weird?
maybe it was because theres no baggage deposit. it was my fault for overlooking the fact that it is a very small event and that no normal ppl would go alone

otherwise, it was pretty fine.
didn consider myself to be doing well because my wave has got 7 competitors,
and i was the last 2nd to get out of the pool
perhaps i should have really swam free style, but that was really beside the point.
in any way. i gave my best. so its alright

transition point was ermm. at the end of the pool.
reallllllly slippery. nearly slipped.but good thing i didn

then followed by the 3.8km run..
the run was a surprisingly alright one.
so... i guess all in all, the feeling was not bad =)

but i haven got over the fact tt i didn attend the swimming lesson yst =(((
hmmmmmm...

i guess i should get myself to start work
or i will NEVER finish!!!
ahhhhhhh



//wangweixuan! way to go~
SHAPE RUN must JIAYOU!!! //

driving was fun! =)
it wasn the very guai lan instructor, infact, this new instructor is really damn nice =)))
althou he is strict, but he taught alot=)
yesterday was alright. except for the final part where i had to stop by the curb to switch over.hahahas!!

attachment is damn sian. company was great.
but... having to read so much articles is really sian

its less than 3 days away!!! its going to be really scary
yet i guess im very much lookin forward to it.
im gonna train abit tml..=) JIAYOU!

today's PT was a ermmm.improvement i shd say?
went for 2 rounds of campus run. and then followed by stretchings and statics

and most importantly,
thanks to the following members:
1. Tan Jin Cai Dennis (thank you for leading PT, and ur presence^^. ure the best!)
2. Tan Xiu Qin Jessica (my dearest president.thanks for coming to join us)
3. Jeremy Raphael Lee Wen Zhen (BRO! ure another one of the best! thanks for ur presence every single monday!!)
4. Chuah Hao Cai (TAKO! xiexie ni for coming down!!)
and also....the freshies
5. Darren Lai
6. Timothy Tan
7. Tey Jun Yuan
for coming! all pulling thru today's training!

for all of the above, i thank you for making today's PT sucha memorable one!
i was disheartened. and i told BRO and TJCD that i was really damn sian alr. sorta like lost hope
but, i got a surprise after coming back frm the first campus run!!!! =)))

thanks people!
people can have one reason to come for PT, but they can have many reason to not come
therefore..
thanks for making it come true
althou there is only 3 and erm 4? freshies,
i believe an improvement is the start to a greater Monday in future.!
and i certainly am looking forward to next week's one!

JIAYOU people!!!
<33333 love you guys loads!! ^^

im super excited!
cant wait for 2.30am to be here!!
its spain vs holland tonight ! ahhhh


hope spain can do well!
and.. win ????!!! pleeeeeaseeee
david villa!! i miss you!


hehe..am super excited now! cuz im going to see villa laterrrr ^^
woooots!



and tml's PT!
hoping to see some miracle!!!
ahhhhhhh

everything is so screwed up.
my life. my studies.
this is what happens when there is no motivation

sometimes i wonder,
i put twice as much effort then compared to others
but.. why is there no hope for me
life is so cruel..isn it.
definitely not referring to studies. but..more of swimming and shooting

other than that.
another thing that was a total bullshit
it makes me lose faith even further.
but still to the "SPECIAL" someone.
thanks for making me realise.that.i have been a fool all along
i will wake up.definitely. one fine day.
and you. better watch out.

on every other occasions,
where are u when i needed you
maybe just one word of concern.is enuff.
does it cost u too much.
the distance between us is just getting more and more obvious
u mean alot to me.but why are u doing tis to me
i believe in you.
but u chose to step on my heart. its already as vulnerable.
i thought u could see. but i guess i thought too much

true enuff
期望越大失望就越大

people who listened. thanks.
u know who u are, and u know how much i appreciate u for that.thanks a million

stupid jerome boateng for kicking my david villa
TSK!




Joachim Loew
COOL STUFF!

说好了不回头不想承诺
缘份尽了你别过头
如果还有什么值得我逗留
我想是你爱过我

只是路无尽头都是路过
什么感受我能带走
眼泪可以不流心碎不能救
看我能否得自由
当我松开你的手
一些风沙哽住眼眸
爱你最后一幕却模糊带过
不让疼痛有路追究

我不后悔我曾爱过
只是天涯从此寂寞
远去的渡口彼岸的灯火
人在河流只许漂泊
我不后悔被你爱过
只是不能爱到最后
短暂的幸福拥有就足够
只要舍得就会快乐会快乐


there you go
another super meaningful song. =)

PT wasn really a success =(
yes to a certain extent, and no to a certain extent too
YES because it was a pretty productive one
(thanks bro, for running another klick with me,singing while running, and listening to me)
NO because i didn expect turnout rate to be lesser than last week =(((

anyway...
thanks to the following people for turning out..
1. Jeremy (thanks bro, you know ure the best!)
2. Dennis (thanks TJCD! for leading the statics, and coming even thou u already expired)
3. Cherwin (thanks for showing up for PT once again =) )
4. Darren (thanks WANGJUN for coming for PT! ure a good boy! )
5. Estella (thanks for joining us for the statics =) )

went running before going for PT o.O
i guess it was quite productive..i feel really ermmmm.
my muscles were well stretched? okay, maybe not when my leg starts to cramp when im doing the statics..hahahas!

will i be able to reach my goal? hmmmmmm




* ****** now i finally realise

other than driving


nothing seems right today
so i guess there isn anything much to say

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