what exactly is wrong with me
why is everybody saying that im suffering from anorexia
that is so nt true!

for people who want to know more about it please go to http://helpguide.org/mental/anorexia_signs_symptoms_causes_treatment.htm

i cant believe im actually so bo liao.instead of doing my WISP, yet here i am blogging about personal stuff.
i really dun understand what is this world coming to.i hate it and yes.i hate it.


people just dun understand how i feel. and it suck ttm.
when u know no one is there for u anymore.

today during WISP, lecturer showed us some videos about photoshop.
and i really agree.no wonder the perception of beauty is distorted..

other than that, the video that has been circulating in facebook about the lady who was abusing her rabbit! although im really scared of animals, but i really dun agree with what the bloody hell they are doing !
what is this world coming to .like seriously! my goodness gracious.

seriously i really dun care about how i look!
so what if im ugly, so be it.
i am NOT ANOREXIC! i am NOT ANOREXIC!
i jus love swimming and running till im a LITTLE obsessed with all of it .
but i guess thats just all.
who isn conscious about how they look..
to a certain extent, all LOVE people to say that they are good looking, all LOVE to be loved by others, and simply jus look good.
look good is not just about looking good. its about how well u carry yourself, and how u go about carrying yourself.

im jus doing sports/exercises a little bit more often that others,thats jus it, and i dun dig, i dun go on a diet.
i know it is true that i keep saying im fat, but cant i just say it for fun?


im really tired. nt exactly that i wanna sleep
but im really so exhausted with life and all these bullshit.




sometimes, i really think i tried my very best
but i think that it is nothing but a waste of time
i really dun wish to think abt anything else.seriously.
give me a break.

has been a really really long time since i last blogged.
i would consider this week to be pretty busy..
PHT test on tue, CTM and CLPH test today..
screwed up for the last 2 tests but heck ! finally its over! (FOR THE TIME BEING)


no idea why, but im looking forward to tomorrow.
looking forward to the lesson =)) Hope cough dun get in the way tml!


PEARLYN, EWEN, EVON! lets go for grad trip tgt!!
im really looking forward to it! hope it will happen! =))
we can all go sight seeing and shopping tgt =) see a sea of pigs too =pp hehe
<3333s
and girls..PLEASE STOP playing PLOCK! i still cant break any of ur high score =(((
BULLSHIT!
hehehe, lots of fun in class today =)
and as usual daniel and din for their randomness..
super epic.=pp


awww man.i hate attachment!
blehhhhhs.im getting restless already! gonna find something to do!
TAKE CARE PEOPLE =))

really very disappointed.
i wun say i worked hard / trained hard for smth.
i promised myself to not expect too much..
but i didn know it will affect me so much...
i didn know i will be so sad/disappointed etc.

i know i love it will all my heart.




none the less, im going to move on
thanks uncle tan and uncle joey for ur motivation..
and esp uncle joey.although ur words are MEAN, but i can feel that at least u care.. =) thanks and im going to move on !

sunshine after the rain...

left house at 7.20 this morning
and it didn take the bus long to arrive...
but...by the time i reached clementi, its already 8.20
i duno wad to say.the heavy traffic and jam is o.o

i was stuck at the slip road that turns into the bustop at clementi mrt for 5 mins because a big yellow bus was blocking the road!!!
i duno how but yes...its blocking the road.
guess what, when my bus go past that yellow bus, i saw this familiar logo.
NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC.
zomg, its ngee ann shuttle bus! and the ngee ann students are congesting the whole bustop!!!! arghs!
im really scared that i will be late the very first day of attachment and esp at SP5A , i definitely dun wanna be late.
went to take mrt, not sure if its a smart choice or wad ...
having to squeeze thru the crowd (of NP students) are nuts! totally crazy. took me at least 3 mins just to pass thru..

and then MRT! my 1st time taking MRT during peak hr, n im AMAZED! its totally SIAO!
duno wad word to describe like seriously.
i could only board the 3rd MRT, and i dun walk in to the train, i was PUSHED into the train.
and worst of all, im only taking for a stop, and i had to squeeze thru to the other door since door open at the other side for dover station.

today is totally almost crazy.....sighs. im tired already
hopefully can sleep early...
duno how early i have to go out tml sia.......
im looking forward to lectures in NP =(((

thank god. that i have such a good bro.
what could i still ask for?
its more than enuff, thanks for the HTHT and the dou nai!



but im still tired, no matter how much i regret something,
i will nv take back my words.
and i have absolutely no idea whether to be active or quiet.. cuz either way, no one is happy.
and im just so not used to life like that.

i just want to be alone.
i have no one to talk to. and the only place i know my secrets are safe is right here.
im such a sad case.

could it be that nothing is gonna change.

this is definitely not the type of life that i want.
why do i have to do so much and ruin everything, ruin every single bit of what could have been the fondest memories.

im really tired.
mentally exhausted.
whatever it is.
just give me a break. or maybe smth that can make me busy and drop dead..

should just stop waiting for smth impossible.
and get down to something more practical.
byebye.










please dont rain

i duno what to say.
i hate today.
i hate myself.
i just want time to turn back!




many years ago.
at this point of time. i was never alone.

was really pissed when i see no dinner for me as soon as i got home.
i dun mean to be mean.
but.. this happens every Wed.. i have no idea why my mum just cannot remember that i have piano lesson every Wed.
she will just think that i am going out and leave out dinner for me.
its my own responsibility to not starve myself.i know. but ...
seriously. its every Wed! im really damn pissed.
but ok lar.. now eat already obviously that feeling is long gone..
luckily.
if not i duno how long my face is gonna remain black.

sighhhhh..
i really hate life now. its really, i duno wad to say..
jus wanna be at home, and do nothing else..
not seeing anyone..literally no one.
and just completely shut myself away from the outside world.


i really wanna be back at the past.
although i wasn exactly very happy in the past, but i was still happy.
what am i now.
nothing.
nothing.
and nothing


maybe uncle is right.
is it gonna be a wake up call for me???
i like my life in the past, can i go back? PLEASE?

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