what's wrong with everybody, what's wrong with everything.
everthing just seems to be in a mess recently.
or is it a fault on my own to see that the whole situation or fault only lies with me.?





Cindy:"Adults are freaky".

if this is a facebook status ..
i will like it.
i will comment: "whats wrong with my parents nowadays"


i guess sometimes people just dont know that they are carrying their joke too far.

today is Faye's birthday!! =)))

im tired......





u will never understand

flashback of what happened on sunday seems to be getting the better of me..



and i wanna watch Spanish La Liga !

Yeah! i passed my FTT! woohoo~
congrats to me myself as well as dindin! hehehe!








the devil within me is growing
its making me demoralised

im weak.
damn cui. i hate this feeling

its a really long day today.
went for work in the morning. was supposed to end work at 1300 but ended up OT-ing for half an hr.
that wasn much of a point, but.ohwells. i missed my nap.lols!!

mmm.after work , went with auntie koh to NTUC, buy 4D and foood.heh heh
im so nice! say im nice! =))
but she was nice enuff to make me my egg mayo sandwich! YEAH!
Provence's egg mayo is like paradise! hehehehee

then after that..to my swimming lesson
swimming lesson today was ermmm. alright i suppose.
but however nt very satisfied with my performance bahs
maybe because i was lagging by quite alot

mmmm.
- warm-up was freaking long distance!! 600m of freestyle + 200m of breast stroke
- 300m of freestyle drills
- 6 sets of 50m butterfly + freestyle drills (10 double arm, 6 single arm, freestyle)

actually i would say its okay lar. hmmm
maybe yar .tiring and im not satisfied.
my bro is damn zai. one who have not hit the waters for 2weeks but yet perform better than me.
sighhhhs. youngsters... i have to admit im old.
and ... i think my bro is realli a potential pro-swimmer..
gotta psycho him into swimming more! hehehe!

i want bbq chicken wing rice =(((
boooohooooooooohooo.
need to control the temptation of L4D2~~~~~!!!!!

最深处的秘密, 回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了


爱太深..真的会让人疯狂
this feeling suck to the max

你要的爱我学不来
不能给你未来我还你现在
分开也是另一种明白


我给你最后的疼爱是手放开

why are things just not going my way today
to hell with youtube
im really tired tired and tired of what i have been doing

time really isn enough for wounds to heal.
which idiot is it that said time heal wounds.
even if wound heals, the scar is always there.
it is there. and will always be there.








believe in what i do
and never give up to reach my dream
no matter how many people believe in me
the most important thing is
i must believe in myself

im better off myself.

have i been training too much?
i was talking to my sis about my training and gymming session yst
and... she was like "wah.. wun backfire mehs"
i was like "hahaha!! wun one la!"

but after that.. i was like hey.. man,she was right.
have i been straining myself too much?
hmmm.anyways. whatever it is
im happy with my performance for the week.

Gold star ....is it achievable?
3m jump?!?!?!
100m within 2.5min?!?!?!
30 laps within 45min?!?!?!
its definitely far from my reach.
but....

NASSA is going to abolish that system already.
there will not be Gold Star next year anymore...
should i risk it ? Uncle Joey said fill the form first.
we will work out the training another time.
should i really do that?! it just seems so far....

when is the next gymming sesssssssion!


and
ITS TIME FOR NEW GOGGLES! hahahas!

its raining heavily.
hope it will stop by noon.

why am i so weak?
i really hate this kinda feeling

sometimes.
is not about whether u can do it anot
but whether u choose to do it anot

its actually alright if u TRY to do it
but its not alright if u are not even trying
and the 2 worst cases of all cases are:
1. Whining and complaining
2. Lack of discipline

i realli need to work on these 2 issues ..

sometimes i wonder.if its not abt the hard work.but more of
perhaps already reaching my limits? but im so determined to do better

it happened to shooting.
and now it feels so damn screwed up.
haven been to the range for 2 weeks already
for all i know. i seemed very much like i have already give up
and i dun wan that to happen
a newly found passion.
how can i let it go so easily.

and to sports. physical training. self training
it takes 1% of talent but 99% of hardwork
but..what if i tell u there are times when i have already put in 99.1% of hardwork.
and its making me feel tired at times..
am i on the right track? or am i drifting away from it.
just like shooting.im not ready to let it go.
and i wanna do even better!

what guys can do.
i can do it too.!
why do people always think that in terms of physical ability etc or wad
guys are always better?
this is a whole load of rubbish
i want to out-prove this theory/mindset.but im too weak for tt



someone..
please guide me
please enlighten me

i have never slept so early before.
yes. there is definitely times when i sleep before 12,
but thats a few years back?
hmmm.so yst. was kinda amazing.

i have no idea wad got into me anyway
and so ..i slept for 7hrs.

which is totally not the main point.
because after i came back from swimming,
i slept frm 2 to 5! gosh!!!
what hav i been doing man!
i literally slept my day aways. but good thing is..
i didn feel that it was a waste.so it was still quite alright i suppose

mmm.maybe cuz it was kinda rewarding?
hahaas!!
i passed my FTE! wooooohooooos! damn happy
i was complaining to dindin about how scared i am yesterday night
cuz my first pract session, apparently the 5 booklets i did all FAIL
and the second and third practice session(which was today), only 1 booklet out of e 10 booklets i did passed.
and i managed to pass my FTE! and i did it so fast that i din was so shocked!
hahahas!! first person to leave the room!
omg. im so amazed by myself! whahahahs!

heh heh..im happy!
and i miss u girls! ewen evon and pearlyn!
date me out if u girls are free
im literally rotting at home ehhs.hahahs!

and.im going to gym tml!
hope it will be a productive session!!!



because its holiday!
and holiday = training!!!







im gonna channel all the energy to doing the things i want to improve in.
and stop complaining!
i better stop whining! its a sign of being weak!

//fighting hard and working hard for what i want! //

althou its "study break" nw..
and the amt of rest i get everyday is more than that of the normal sch days or attachment days,
i still feel tired
damn damn damn tired.

went jogging with cassie in the afternoon.
and then wash AXIO and then went to have lunch tgt! hehehe!
damn nice!!
except for the part where i was literally ambushed by something.ahahas

mmmm.im kinda tired being me
is this the usual me?
or am i faking too much,too used to it
that i have lost myself.
im realli tired.


super not motivated to do anything
esp shooting.

i want to watch spanish la liga!!!!!!!!






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