.Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 1:47 AM Y
命運真的好幽默 总是讓愛的人沉默 ..
its a tiring day for me today.
tiring .both physically and mentally
because i had less than 4hrs of slp the night before, and the worse thing is work
gosh. although its only 4hrs, but im glad it passed pretty fast today.
wads e worse abt the job is .. its like a routine
before opening shop, drink, wash these wash that.
after opening, serve these serve that. walk here walk there. clear these clear that
and its like something programmed in after having work there for 2 years +
i dun think i need the money alot, but im working for the sake of it
totally no motivation.jus because im asked to work, i work
but other than that i haf no other choice.or do i?
i really wanna find a job..another job.smth i really like
i really hate myself .
if only i dont take things for granted, if i continued swimming way back while i was really young, i wld hav gotten my life saving or even on my way there.
and i cld work as a life guard or smth
its amazingly looking at ppl swimming from another POV
hmm..if not.clinic assistant wld be fine as well?
sighs..but im way far from getting that job luhs.forget it man
well. i was really in a serious bad mood this morning.
and i had literally a BLACK face. that my sis dun even dare to talk to me after getting 0 response when she told me abt smth regarding her story book
i jus continue eating and staring at the food.
but things eventually got better after the nap (3hr)
so..yeaps.glad i got things figured out. if not i wld most probably have to carry on sulking for the rest of the week.
i still cant believe the fact that i told yuqi i would choose shooting over him
not sure if i was in the right state of mind. but ..
well. its too late to say that i wanna take back the words even if i want to.
if things are meant to work out, they probably would .. eventually.so...tadah!
i finally got the photo from jason ..the one with me and nakagawa san.
laughed for quite awhile though. but ohwells. cool.
a start of a new week..
does it mean that it would be better than the last one ?
because i seriously hope it will.. otherwise.. **#&$ (shall not say much)
shall end here.