.Tuesday, March 6, 2012 @ 1:15 AM Y
命運真的好幽默 总是讓愛的人沉默 ..
到头以来 , 还是说得容易做的难
Whether am i supposed to continue following my heart or to face reality.bcuz we jolly well know that e reality is forever e cold hard truth that people arent willing to believe.and that, of cuz, is not what we desire.
Humans are so selfish..(ok fine, shant be so general, im referring to myself)i cant help but to have selfish thinkings ..always hoping that things can turn out e way i want it to be.
But however much, i still prefer things to follow nature's course.bcuz i dun believe in changing (change for better is good, but sometimes, its not abt the good n bad of changing, its abt e principles that u once hold so dearly)
ok fine, im talking rubbish...as if i knw what im talking also.
Shant say anything much...forget it.
I think im just tired..
No longer feel like thinking about all my misc thoughts..its seriously draining me..
And all these emotional thoughts i have to say, are really eating me from inside out.. Leaving me with nth at all..
No beliefs, no character, no self esteem, no nothing..
#forever alone
1 paper down (IBM). Totally speechless.2 more to go, and tt one week i better do something therapeutic instead of thinking about all those 有的没的 ..hais.
Sometimes, when i think about doing smth, i cant do it bcuz im tied down by so much issues.
Not referring to work is specific actually..but more of those physiological as well as psychological barriers.
Ok fine, sound cheem right..have no wish to say out..
Just hope that one day i will understand.
Just exactly how long do i need....to straighten out my thinking..
How long do i need.to stop hating myself.
原来问题的根源根本就是自己太执着，太相信自己的理念
伤害了自己，也伤害了他人
到底我需要做什么才能打开我的心结
早知道是苦果， 我为何还要沦陷于其中Hais.
And im so smart..i just wasted e adidas voucher my bro bought for me for my last bday..
It expired a week ago..hais..nt tt i found smth to buy jus as yet.
But if i knw its going to expire so soon, i would hv jus gotten smth..even if i dun need /want it.
See, thats human nature.understand?
失去了才来后悔 ; 一切已经太迟了 =(