.Thursday, March 1, 2012 @ 1:21 AM Y
命運真的好幽默 总是讓愛的人沉默 ..
went to work today (despite a 2day MC) bcuz there is a celebration and also siewjuin's farewell party during lunchtime. Siokying is nice enough to tell me personally abt it and yea, kinda went for work bcuz of that
but pain was pretty bad during work so i still ended up leaving early and also didn go for e lunchtime celebration..
Hais, felt bad twards e fellow march babies as well as siew juin.
thereafter sleeping e whole afternn away after finishing my lunch n meds.
Hais, just wasted another day.when im supposed to study.
But i cannot deny e fact tt resting is actually a very gd form of recovery. Yupp, woke up feeling much better.
Hais, dunno why am i so sensitive n paranoid.
Pain is a very individualised thing and also a pretty subjective diagnosis..was kinda worried that people will judge me whenever i say im nt feeling well..hais.
Of cuz sm people will say i deserve it for pushing myself too hard just for swimming la.but hais..who understand e pain bhind all these man.i can only keep it to myself.
E worst thing about MC is yea, back to e same whole issue abt being judged.
My family is definitely not e type that encourages us to take MC unless super in need or bo bian kind like chicken pox.
Since young, like from pri sch all e way till now, i haven taken any unnecessary MCs ..and usually even when e doctor gave us an MC if e next day we r feeling ok, my parents wun let us use it.
Fine enough, in terms of studying...i agree to a larger extent la.i mean i wldn wanna waste time slacking at home and end up missing a day worth of lesson bcuz u cld actually miss out on alot..
Feel kinda bad saying this but yes..still clearly remember a few mths ago that i was running a fever..was alr super unwell e night before with a fever of 38degC.. Tt morning even before i wake up, my mum before she left for work, came to check on me..i told her i was unwell and she still asked me to go work n see how.
My sis who overheard e convo was shocked but cont sleeping.
Then bo bian woke up n bathed n i felt even worse..e chills are driving me crazy..my dad said e same thing also.was damn pek cek i took my temp n it was alr 39.2degC n he said e same thing as my mum..
Felt super upset tt my parents totally disregarded my well being. My sis who saw everyth was super sympathetic twards me..and she lemme hug her..so sweet right.hais.
Anyway, just now before my dad went to sleep.. He reminded me not to go swim this sat.
HOW TO???! Is like i already told them im feeling much better..i know he meant well, but i alr promised to take ownership and tt i wun go for lifesaving...a very big compromise alr, why cant ppl jus understand. I will stop if i feel unwell...alr promised.
I know im really bad for complaining here..but i hv no one to talk to...
Can people also dun judge me about e kinesio tape? It is supposedly therapeutic and prevents sports injury.
At least if its not true, its up to me to decide cuz i have used it and those people who have not used it seriously have no rights to judge it.
Im e consumer, i have e right to decide whether is it true after using it.. So STFU ok??
I dunno why this whole day is filled of angst, but ya..
算了吧 ; 说了这样多,人家也未必听得进
听进了,也未必听得懂
懂了,也未必了解
了解了, 若不谅解又岂不是一场空
到头来也只不过是对牛弹琴...